Because now I’m at my desk. On a stool lent to me by Ma. I have gotten this little apartment for myself and moved in and am feeling really good after two-ish years of being away and in a strange state. New job beginning shortly. Seeming more and more like a good fate. No clue what’s ahead but very happy with right now. Took a shower, made a cup of coffee. Feel really pretty incredible. My background to the digital desktop really beautiful. Some kind of mist-laden river in lust forestry. The mist is on the higher levels, blotting areas of trees and the entire sky. Very humid. I like rainy atmospheres. That’s a factoid about me. You will not be quizzed.
I am letting myself laugh more at things. Last night, I spent roughly an hour listening to Mitch Hedberg standup while baking some Tilapia. I have an office chair coming in the mail complete with a floor mat. I am excited about that. It is going to be heaven to sit in that thing. Now, I guess all this time pre-job-training is like a kind of an adjustment period. Accustom myself to organizing my life a little more effectively. I’m highly, highly thankful for all this and want to keep it all going well. So here I am right now. Good morning to you.
As for plans art-wise, I should consider creating the first video for Kweit Signal, in which I read from a new series or one of The Golden Damned or something. There are tons of things I can be doing. I want to cultivate a tangible vibe and wrap it up in sensory packaging for the viewer to experience. I want to really reach someone, with this. Make it substantive. Make it real. Make it true. A large part of this requires me to cultivate my voice, as in actually. I don’t know, I know that’s a long life-spanning process and all. All the more reason to get to it. There are a lot of books I own. 99% are in storage. I like to read a couple pages to get a sense of the music. I’ve heard of this a way of “tuning” the writing instinct of what have you. I think I’ll soon get on that. Aesthetically, I sure can work on that. I’ll probably opt for a more in-the-moment type of aesthetic approach while editing the thing. May set large parts of it to gameplay footage, something I enjoyed about watching the old Leafyishere videos. Kind of hypnotic that way. I’m interesting in how music hypnotizes the soul. And while hypnosis tends to have a kind of slimy aura about it, it interests me how being enraptured is so similar conceptually. Maybe considering a sort of gothic/sedated vaporwave aesthetic. Really should just create my own music for the thing. Know that will take more time, though. We’ll see.
Probably will have to fragment these posts throughout the day in order incentivize myself. This is more/less me just writing out my plans in realtime and then carrying them out or not. Either way it’s a great reminder to keep on task and execute. Let’s see where I can take this.
-K-